Highs and Lows December 4, 2011

LOWS:

Am very indecisive about Christmas this year.  I've found great stuff on Amazon, but getting presents so the kids feel it is all "even" is a struggle.  Well, at least for Cole and Seth--Brooke will be fine with what she gets, and if Luke gets one Lightning McQueen car he'll be good to go.  Now I feel way behind since I've bought nothing and my anxiety is increasing.

I went to yoga, and had to spend the majority of it just sitting there since I had terrible heartburn.

Luke is waking up 2-3 times a night and getting into bed with me.  His favorite positions are knees in my back, or knees in my stomach.  He wont sleep next to Shawn.

Dragged Luke to the mall that had a maternity store and they had 5 dresses--all strapless, with no jacket or shrug or any alternative to hide strapless shoulders.  I am now driving all over town checking out consignment shops and thrift stores for decent maternity clothes.  They are hard to find.  I wonder where they all go?  Great maternity clothes should be filling these places, since they are short term and many people don't hold onto clothes for years....

Saw a creepy cross dresser at the mall, who tried to take pictures of the kids in the play land.  I got my camera out to take  a picture of him and he took off.

I must stop taking naps.  Not some 20 minute power nap, but a real 2+ hour nap.  I get migraines and nauseous when I wake up every time--which is backwards because I take the nap to try and prevent such feelings!

At the ward Christmas party last night, Shawn left during dinner to get some Advil for a migraine due to crazy work problems.  He forgot to come back and get us.  I called him 12 times in a panic, as it was 9:15, pouring rain, and they were locking the building.  I asked someone I don't really know for a ride, packed 5 people into 2 seats and got home.  Shawn met us at the door all confused and I promptly burst into tears and started yelling at him at the same time.  His phone hadn't rung once, and 10 minutes later my first voicemail finally popped up. He told me he sat on the couch to let the Advil take effect and kept thinking:  "I should probably head back, but if Amber hasn't called me, I guess she doesn't need me."  Hmmph!   Later, I asked him to go to the store for me to get bread.  He came back with my 3 favorite ice creams and 12 loaves of bread--plus 4 bags of bagels and 3 bags of Hawaiian rolls. 

Cole had a terrible bullying incident at school.  It was just heartbreaking.  I am looking at a local charter school and homeschooling him if things don't get better asap.  But that still leaves open the question of what school will he go to next year?  I want to get a house and live there for another 10 years like we did in Corona.  I'm sick to death of all this uncertainty in our housing.

Sugar and Luke opened up every box of Christmas ornaments and left my family room a royal mess.  They broke some of my favorites and most meaningful ornaments. 

I would really like to not be pregnant anymore.

HIGHS:

Our shower is patched.  It didn't leak this morning when I used it.

Seth was in the school Spelling Bee and came in 10th place.  I was really proud of him as he was the last 3rd grader left and was competing against all older kids.

I found a maternity dress that will work for $6.00 at Goodwill.  I had to sift through about 20 jean jumpers from 1997 and some hideous dresses from the 80's, but that was actually quite fun.

We bought our Christmas tree. 

I ran into Seth's and Brooke's teachers at school one day and they both heaped lavish praise on those two.  Glad they are doing so well and enjoying school. 

Discovered that our van is actually still under bumper to bumper warranty until the end of this month, so I am getting everything fixed that is covered.